I just realized how long it has been since I last wrote. Life is good, I am missing Nick so much but as of tomorrow, one month will have passed since he left and that means we are one-third of the way through!
A few things I have learned over the last couple of weeks:
1. Becoming motivated to do things like household chores, homework, and studying, is a lot harder when your husband is gone. I'm not really sure why but it really does effect that motivation!
2. If you leave a glass with ANY amount of liquid in it on your table, your cats will find it and knock it over. Unfortunately, I found this out more than once due to my next point:
3. When you are sick and really don't feel like doing anything, seeing anyone, or getting out, you will tend to waste large amounts of time and be lazy when it comes to putting away glasses of liquid. And your cats will take those moments to knock over the glasses of liquid, spilling the contents on letters to your husband and the random book that you leave on the table.
4. If you ever get started on a hobby like crocheting, you may find yourself doing the exact same thing over and over and over until your fingers are irritated and tender. (that's what I get for choosing a pattern that calls for 130 motifs to create an afghan.)
5. That you never truly stop missing your husband, regardless of how long you have had to adjust to the differences in your life. There will always be too many leftovers, things that you don't know how to do, things that remind you of him, an empty side of the bed, and a tear on the pillow because your heart aches from the silence in your house.
At long last, one checkpoint has been reached, we are one-third of the way through! Now to face the other two-thirds with strength, determination, and courage one day at a time.
Thoughts from a former dancer, future teacher, and lover and follower of Jesus Christ
I couldn't agree with number 5 more. Blake just doesn't get it. He says that he feels like I should be able to "just adjust", like it's a switch we can just turn on and off... I wish it was like that! But as much as we don't cry every day anymore, it's like you said, little things bring that pain back some days without us even knowing it. I was in the grocery store the other day and our song came over the radio in the store and it was all I could do to hurry and finish checking out and rush out of the store before anyone saw the tears in my eyes! It's just so terribly and completely lonely when they are gone. At least, like you said, we have finally reached a checkpoint.
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